Noel's Non-existent (Non-)existence

Noel did not exist, per se. His non-existence was evident to all the people who had never known him, and nobody ever had, but Noel himself was not entirely sure about it. He had thought about it for a long time, and had come to the well-known conclusion that;

"I think, therefore I am!" Thus, his non-existence was non-existent and he had proven his own existence.

"But then," he thought, "<i>where</i> do I exist?" He could not really see anything, perhaps because there was no light there - whereever "there" was - or simply that there was actually nothing  to see.

So Noel might be existing in non-existence or just in complete darkness. The one or the other, Noel could not say. He might even - though he believed to have proven his own existence - still be non-existent in existence, or just very small, locked in a cupboard or a box which had never been opened. Of course, in his non-existence, he did not know of neither a box nor a cupboard nor even the concept of small, due to the fact that he had nothing big to compare with.

In fact, no concepts at all were evident to Noel, who, in his time of not existing did not even know whether he was coming into existence or was supposed to be the one to start - or possibly end - all of existence. He did feel both an urge to create and a longing to be created. Ultimately, he knew nothing - not even of his own existence or non-existence. He had nothing and did not do very much with his time. Except think - for a very long time.

Hopeless Stream of Consciousness - Jacob Bęk

4/9 - 2007: First draft
5/9 - 2007: Second draft
6/9 - 2007: Final draft